Another reminder

Yesterday one of Gods sweet little angels returned home to be with him. Since becoming a heart mommy I have watched as other families have had to say goodbye for a time to their little angels. It is heartbreaking to me. I try not to ask "why?" I know that these little spirits were sent here for just a moment so that we could experience Heaven on earth. These are Celestial beings and are home and safe from the cares of this world. The passing of these little babies is a reminder to me of the precious blessing that is my son. I am so grateful for him and for the gift that he is to me and my family. I get very frustrated with myself that I need this reminder to enjoy life, every moment, but I still do need to be reminded. It is hard to try and find the balance of enjoying lifes moments and keeping life in order. So today I will choose to enjoy life while trying to keep it in order.

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Thankful

I'm thankful for my Husband, my beautiful children, My Savior, my church, my family, friends, my new home, Miracles. What are you Thankful for?

Random Things

My wonderful Friend Natalie tagged me to write 10 random things about myself. Here goes it....

These are in no specific order of importance.

1. I love Football!!! Love everything about. I love watching it on TV, i love going to games. I love eating chick-fila at the Utes stadium(YUMMY)!! I look forward all week for Friday and Saturday night football.

2. I have a guilt complex. I feel guilty 97.5% of the time. I don't know how to stop it.

3. I miss my Grandma every day.

4. I love movies. Some of my favorites are "White Christmas", "Meet me in St. Louis" I love most Judy Garland movies. My guilty pleasure movie is "Bridget Jones Diary" I love Jane Austen type movies; "Jane Eyre", "Pride and Prejudice"(new and old),"North and South"
I love going to the movies. My favorite movie treat is Extra Extra Butter popcorn with milk duds. You put a bite of both of these in your mouth and it is like carmel popcorn, mmmm, yummy!!!

5. I have a thing for fresh crayons. I want to buy a pack every time I see one. They just make me happy. There is just something about coloring a picture with a brand new crayon. Love it!!

6. I love to bake. Not cook, Bake. One bowl, several measuring cups and spoons, one pan=magic. In college I would look up a new recipe each day and go home and make it. I loved making apple pies(even though I hate eating apple pies).

7. I will share this next one only if you promise the next time you see me you will not do any of the following. Deal. I have A LOT of pet peeves. The main ones can go under the category of mouth noises. Any and All mouth noises. Comping your food, chewing your gum loudly, cleaning out your teeth with your tongue, chewing gum at all, and last but most definitely not least clicking your tongue. That one tops the charts. When I was little my brothers knew that this bothered me and they would do it often just to upset me. Well one night when my parents were gone they were clicking their tongues at me. I got so upset that I dialed 911 and screamed in the phone and then hung up. Guess who showed up at our house moments later. Try explaining that to two police officers.

8-I have two hidey toes. Two of my toes hide behind the one next to them. When I was younger I thought that everyones toes looked like mine, until my dear friend Lara Lee made fun of them. It still doesn't bother me. One of the sweetest moments of my life is when my first baby was born and one of the first things we noticed was that she had toes just like mine. It was amazing!

9- I love to sing in the shower. Some of my favorites are of course Broadway tunes. "Memory" from Cats, "Les Miserables" "Seven Brides for Seven Brothers" I like to sing loud and it doesn't matter what it sounds like. I just imagine I am on stage and I have the best voice in the world.

10- I would love to have a soundtrack to my everyday doings. Everything would be more exciting set to music. Your first kiss, break ups, losing a job, your babies being born. Even the normal every day stuff; baths, meals, driving kids to school, discussions with your spouse, homework. Everything would be better set to music.

11- I'm cheating and adding another one. I love when people comment on my blog. :)

I now tag......Juliann, MaryAnn, Tara, Erin. Have fun.

Happy Birthday Ellie!!

My cute little Ellie finally turned 4!! She has been talking about being four since she turned three. She is growing up so fast. I was going through all of her pictures the other day and I can't believe how these last four years have zoomed on by. She is so much fun. She is my little drama girl. She loves to dance and sing and make her little brother scream. It is her new found goal in life to make him mad. If he is sitting being happy she has a remedy for that. She is our little one liner girl. The other day we were all in the car and Ryan and I were having a discussion-ok more than a discussion we were a little upset. After a few minutes of listening to us "discuss" from the back seat of the car Ellie said "Oh shuuut uuup!" It was classic. That is a bad word in our house but it was much too funny to do anything but laugh. That is our Ellie, always keeping us on our toes with her wit.

We had a fabulous birthday. We invited Ellies friends and cousins to the pumpkin patch where the kids played in the maze and climbed on the tractors and got to pick out a pumpkin. Ellie had so much fun she did not want to leave. I love that her birthday is in the Halloween season. It is my favorite holiday, hopefully when she is older she will let me do a haunted house for her party.


The Birthday Girl!

The Party Gang. I don't think that is everyone that came to the pumpkin patch, kids kept jumping in and out of the picture.

Sisters, sisters, there were never such devoted sisters.

An impromptu bowling session while Ryan had to run to work for a minute.

Birthday girl and birthday cake. That cake took me 4+ hours to make and 5 minutes to destroy.

We love you Ellie belly. I am so glad I had you!!!

Cardiology clinic

Today Daxton had his monthly cardiology clinic. We started out the day with labs. This is usually the hardest part of the visit, nobody likes to be stuck with a needle. Today was unusually awful. The lab tech first tried once with a no go so I had her call IV team, they came and attempted to get some blood from my brave little man. It took them 5 more tries to get barely enough blood to do all of the blood work that is necessary for all of the tests. Poor Daxton was screaming the entire time. He feel asleep for literally one minute during I think the 4th attempt just out of pure exhaustion. Most times I can handle the blood draws ok but today was awful for me to watch. Afterward I just wanted to sit and cry. We both made it and the rest of clinic went swimmingly. I love our transplant team they are all such amazing people. I feel like they are part of our family. All of his labs turned out great, his echo looks great. He has finally had some good weight gain. Last clinic he was 7.6 kilos and now he is 7.9!! So he weighs 17 lbs 6 oz!!! You get em tiger. He is just overall doing awesome.

I have wanted to update on all of Daxtons accomplishments lately. He is sitting up all by himself! The big great news for us is that he is eating like a champ. He will eat anything and will feed himself. He likes to eat on the go a lot so I will give him some cheese or some bread and he will just scoot around eating it. It is so exciting for us to see him eating well. It seems like right after I have a hard week worrying and stressing about his developement and growth he seems to just pick up the pace and get things done. It is like he is telling me to just chill out, he will get there.

I never ever forget where we have been with Daxton but somedays it hits me especially strong that he is a such a miracle. That him being here scooting on the ground, screaming at his sisters(also a new found talent as of late), learning to walk, and all of his fun little quirks, all of these are miracles! I am so so grateful for my little man. He is such a true joy. Our new goals are to get him to pull himself up to standing position and work on walking. You can do it Daxton! My girls are calling Daxton-Daxy. I am not quite sure about this new found nick name. What do you think?

No go.

So we did not end up speaking on Sunday. Ryan caught the bug that has been running amuck at our house and my oldest darling was so sick. I also was fighting a sinus infection so we thought it best to stay home and not spread the love. We are all feeling great now. I finally feel like we are back in the land of the living.
Thank you all so much for your sharing your thoughts and experiances with me. I know that we will be talking soon so I will hopefully be talking on the same subject and get to share your stories with them. I just watched this video and I loved it. This is what helps me with my burdens.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coef8G5ax6E
I also have some fantastic, exciting, miraculous news! Daxton can now sit up all by himself. I know I know it may not seem like a lot, however he is almost 18 months and has refused to sit up. But now he is doing it!! Yahoo! I am so proud of him. He gets pretty upset at me when I lay him down just so I can watch him sit back up. I love it! He amazes me! Sitting up-check-next step walking.

That their burdens may be light.

So Ryan and I have been asked to give a talk at church on Sunday. This is the shortest amount of time we have been in a ward before we were asked to give a talk. We will try our best. I was hoping that all you lovely people could help me. If you would be able to share a story with me about someone/something has helped your burdens be lighter I would love your input. Thanks a bunch!!
Don't be shy.